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Mushroom Montoya circumnavigated the globe aboard the USS Trippe DE1075 after killing soldiers, woman and children in Viet Nam. Now, as a shaman, he heals the planet one person at a time. Mushroom Montoya has an active shamanic healing practice in Long Beach, California and he teaches at the Osher Lifelong Learning Institute at Cal State Univ. Long Beach.

Monday, April 23, 2018

Departing Pearl Harbor


July 1973. The bright Hawaiian sun made our dress whites sparkle as we stood at attention on the weather decks of  USS Truxtun. The warm breeze blowing across Pearl Harbor ruffled our pants. It was a perfect day to sail out of the harbor. We were not on a pleasure cruise; we were sailing to Viet Nam. My thoughts were a mixture of wishing we could stay in Hawaii and worry about my going back to Viet Nam. All of a sudden, my mind started doing summersaults trying to discern what my eyes were witnessing. My brain rapidly cranked out possible explanations and then quickly tossed them out as being impossible or stupid.
Thought number one: Who would be stupid enough to swim under our ship while it is moving? 
Thought number two: Who would be stupid enough to swim along our ship while it is moving? 
Thought number three: Who would be stupid enough to swim with all their clothes on?
I stared at the swimmer. Those clothes were dungarees. Someone must’ve jumped overboard. And then the man overboard alarm went off and we all ran to our designated man overboard stations. Who jumped? We all wanted to hear. It didn’t take long to figure out who. And then we ran back outside to watch the tug boat that had picked up the soggy sailor. His name is Joe Young. He had already been to Viet Nam three times and he had no intention of going a 4th time. (or maybe that would’ve been his third time.) Joe was brought back to the ship. He was out of the Navy 30 days later.

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Viet Nam Follows Me


Viet Nam follows me
Stepping on my heals
As she punctures my back
With a long syringe
That stings and burns
With memories of young boys
Being blown up
By a kaboom and a flash.
Their arms, and legs,
Torsos, and heads
Scream in unison
Scattering and settling
With the dust.
A pair of green pants
With their legs still inside
Is all that remains.
I  hear their mothers wail
And cry for their dead sons.
Guilt slithers around my throat
Making me choke and cry
For my own dead son.
Is his death the price
The price I must pay
For my inability
To stop the war,
To stop the guns,
To stop the kaboom,
To stop the flash,
To stop the deaths
Of those young boys?
My eyes replay
The killing flash
Over and over
As my gut wrenches,
And twists and turns
The memories of
The bombing,
The killing,
The chilling
Truth:
Death is forever.